coming home: June 4th, 2012
Jun. 10th, 2012 02:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This isn't ideal. This place, these people, I don't feel in control, like I am in a car that has spun out of control. The only thing I am certain of is my ability to wrap the man walking with me around my finger. Danny Williams. Police man, but with a weakness for children that surpasses John's. Danny Williams. My new Daddy. But I don't call him that, we only just met. No papers have been signed, if that's what needs to happen here for adoption.
It doesn't change the fact that he's mine.
Reaching out, I take his hand as we walk, looking up to give him a shy smile. I can anticipate his reaction, he's an easy read for me, and the only thing that worries me now is his... partner? HE does not live alone, although he has not said much about his partner. He simply kept his promise and did what paperwork was necessary to take home. It doesn't matter. He's still mine.
"Thank you for not leaving me. Many adults just leave children behind, even if they promise not to."
It doesn't change the fact that he's mine.
Reaching out, I take his hand as we walk, looking up to give him a shy smile. I can anticipate his reaction, he's an easy read for me, and the only thing that worries me now is his... partner? HE does not live alone, although he has not said much about his partner. He simply kept his promise and did what paperwork was necessary to take home. It doesn't matter. He's still mine.
"Thank you for not leaving me. Many adults just leave children behind, even if they promise not to."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 08:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 09:50 pm (UTC)"Pineapple-infested island? Is she here? Can I see her?" Another sister. How lovely. Hopefully this one will be easier to communicate with.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 10:17 pm (UTC)My eyes scan the area, looking out for landmarks, things I would need to know. It helps me appear unsure, and a little worried.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 10:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 10:39 pm (UTC)"Why do you live with a man? did you say you had a little girl like me? Where is your wife?" Innocent questions that will tell me if I've somehow chosen wrong. If I already need to manufacture a reason to leave.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-10 11:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 12:13 am (UTC)He's a Navy SEAL. That's military. Violence comes easy. Useful to know.
But a little guilt is never a bad thing. "I will be very good. I promise. You won't have to send me away and no one will have a reason to take me." I squeeze his hand. "I'm yours now."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 12:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 12:31 am (UTC)And I'm his.
"He won't make me leave? You promised."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 12:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 02:49 am (UTC)I take his hands, both of them, tucking the bag under my arm so I can do so. "Then you still want to be my new Daddy? And you think he will, too?"
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 02:43 pm (UTC)He glances up from where he's cutting fruit on the kitchen counter, a towel thrown over one shoulder. "Danno? That you?"
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 05:57 pm (UTC)He heads inside, taking a deep breath. "Don't be mad," is all he says. "But something happened today and it's gonna change our lives."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 06:11 pm (UTC)The fact that he has to start with, 'Don't be mad,' is actually promising.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 06:16 pm (UTC)He waits for an answer, quietly expectant.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 06:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 07:08 pm (UTC)I can understand why, but I wonder, what, exactly the reaction will be and since I want to see it, I peek my head around the door a little, hoping no one will notice me yet.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 07:10 pm (UTC)"She's an orphan?" he asks, setting both knife and towel aside after wiping his hands off on the latter.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 08:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-11 09:05 pm (UTC)Instead I lean in further, hoping the dog doesn't alert them. I can see it looking at me.
no subject
Date: 2012-06-12 11:21 am (UTC)Zulu barks once and Steve pulls back, glancing over Danny's shoulder at the pair of eyes peering in around the corner.
"It's okay," he says. "You can come in."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-12 11:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-13 04:39 am (UTC)I enter the... hut, holding out my hand, always glancing to make sure my ribbons are in place. When I get close enough, I even curtsy. It looks cute although it feels ridiculous. "I am Esther. It is very nice to meet you."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-13 11:45 pm (UTC)"Hi, Esther," he repeats, crouching down slightly to put himself closer to her eye level, gently clasping her hand in his. "I'm Steve."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-14 11:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-06-15 12:37 am (UTC)Plus, it makes it easier to gauge their reactions, if they think I sometimes struggle, they do not watch what they say as much. "Please do not make me leave."
no subject
Date: 2012-06-17 01:46 am (UTC)"Don't worry," he says, slowly easing back to his feet. "We've definitely got the room."